I couldn't possibly love a cheater could I? Have I allowed myself to fall in love with a guy who sneaks around on his wife having trysts with me while his wife is slaving to keeep a nice home and have everything perfect?
I have heard his criticism of her and cringed. I heard him yelling at her and ordering her to go to bed so he could get me alone. She complained to me on more than one occasion that their sex life is non existent and he never touches her anymore despite her remaining fit and attractive.
I am wondering if he has OCPD? Obessive Compulsive Personality Disorder
I'll bet she doesn't get text messages saying, 'Good morning gorgeous' or 'Hi Sexy'. Ever stolen moment he can find is with me. We went for a long leisurely walk and lunch on Friday. No sex. Just talking and being friends. He has been feeling down about work lately and I have been there for a hug and a cuddle. He told me he wants us always to be friends and that he never wants to lose me.
I know this isn't the same thing as being marriage material. How could it be when I am his 'fun' buddy while his wife is slaving her ass off?
As his wife she is accountable to a much higher standard than me. My house is far less conventional and tidy. They both make good money but money is tightly controlled. In fact I am now being to expect that he is a bit of a control freak! I got a text message that because he walked home in the freezing cold the money he saved paid for his fish and chips!! He asked to borrow my travel card on the day I wasn't using it to save another £10? I don't even think of these things. He talks about their finances a lot.
Image is everything to him and he is very meticulous as to how he will look if it all comes out.
I know more about their financial status then I do them.
One minute I can feel myself falling in love with him and wishing there was something more. The next minute I am getting "danger danger"... and the urge to back away slowly.
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