Thursday, 17 April 2008

Searching for a soul mate

Not much surprises me anymore. Yet I find myself amazed at the number of guys coming out of long term marriages with kids talking about looking for their soul mate.

  • Mike 53 - married 31 years 4 kids wants to feel alive and find his soul mate
  • readyman 46- married 16 years, 2 kids - marriage made him boring and he was turning into an old fart and wants his life back
  • tony_bc 41- marriage 7 years, 3 kids - looking for his soul mate and some one who likes the same things as him
  • deerek - 45 married 12 years, 2 kids - looking for soul mate amd wants his life back
  • james 145 42 - married 10 years, 1 kid - looking for soul mate who wants to have fun
  • geroryboy - married 11 years - wants to fee love again
  • keith 54 - married 18 years, 3 kids - looking for soul mate and love
  • scottac - married 15 years, no kids - looking for fun and to feel loved again
  • funky_druman - married 12 years, 2 kids - looking for soul mate and life partner

I don't believe in soul mates. The notion that there is this one perfect person for us. I have met lots of guys I could have had a relationship with and married. I have been in love. What I am looking for is some one I can't live without.

Tuesday, 1 April 2008

What a nice husband?


Loverboy came over last night. I was tired and really wanted to go to bed early but he was insistant. "I just want to see you and give you a kiss goodnight." What he really wanted was a blow job and to fuck me. "Please let me fuck you and then you can finish me off by sucking my dick." I have no idea why I obliged. A year ago he was a dream man. He was gorgeous, successful and a good husband. Or so it seemed when you are peeking over the picket fence.

Last night with his dick peeking out of his trousers and him pushing his cock into my mouth while his wife is eagerly awaiting him he is my worst nightmare.

Friday left a bitter taste in mouth. I was out as usual. On Friday he was out with his wife and by both accounts they had a great night out. So what is going on his mind when sitting next to his wife on the journey home and he is texting his mistress to end the night with her (me)? Sex obviously.

But what a lying, dirty, cheating, rat to be sitting next to his wife playing the loving husband when he is up to something like that.

Last night I asked him about it and he batted his eyes in a playful manner and just tried to gloss over it.

I feel sorry for his wife. His days with me are numbered. His days as a cheater are far from over.

Sunday, 30 March 2008

A man pleaser?

Mad Men, the new American tv show portrays advertising in the 50's and provides an interesting comparison for women now. The women in the show are a mix of pre-feminist stereotypes - socially ambitious secretaries, the perfect stay-at-home wives and the free spirited mistresses.

Further back there were the Geishas and Tanyu of Japan who were celebrated by men and treated with indifference by wives. Never mind that most didn't choose that lifestyle but were sold by their parents as children. Surely it wasn't normal for women not to be married and have children? They were fashionistas and free spirits. In their world they were independent and although they were artisans first they were also business women. At a time when women didn't work or own business they did. In the flower and willow world they owned the Geisha houses, Geisha schools, agencies and tea houses.

Like the saying the more things change the more they stay the same. Now books like the Domestic Godess and shops like Cath Kidson are supposed to be ironic. Ironic really? Is ironing, cleaning and looking after kids ironic too? Is it ironic that I have ended up a mistress? How did it come to that? I chose freedom, a career and no kids but I still beleived that I would marry for life.

In Mad Men Mrs Don Drapper says to the secretary without a hint of irony "you probably know him more than I do" as she sits there waiting for him with her brood. Later she says to her friend "I really expect the royal treatment when I walk into his office (by the other staff)... but it's like walking into another country where I don't speak the language".

Funny I faced this same senario. My boss's wife came in with their two kids to pick him (he was taking the afternoon off) and sat at his desk while he was in a meeting. She looked at me as if to say 'look after them (her children)' while she went to the washroom. She acted really smug as if to say 'I am the boss's wife'. Damn girl are you delusional or what? The man is an idiot. A skirt chasing idiot that catches no one try as he might though. He's a pig who is on his way out and the sooner the better. He eats lunch with no one. She came back and I did my best to try to look busy. I later chatted to my co-workers about it. Whether she is the wife of the CEO or the wife of the janitor to us her status is the same.

This is a top 5 London ad agency that could give Mad Men a run for the title. In fact Loverboy works there. He of course is not the only one screwing around on his wife. It is still the done thing don't you know.

The only really difference between then and now is fashion. The creatives now are a scruffy looking lot. On a night out the best they can hope for is for some one to mistake them for the foul-mouthed fame seekers Tower of London. Everything else is the same including their over importance about what they do. They've modernised nothing. In fact the agency I am mentioning is only just embracing the digital age and putting in an inhouse web team. It is fraught with pain and drama. Never mind that else where the internet is worth billions and billions and people behave like grown ups. They are insisting they do it their way.

Damn anyone who gets in their way. Point this out to them and you are shown the door by the head gimp in his long greasy hair, black jeans and converse trainers.

What would be scarier greasy-boy's wife or his mistress?

Nothing Strange About It

Sexy candle found at Waitrose


The smell is amazing and very sexy. Wild Jasmine is one of the flowers proven to stimulate erotic feelings. Bring it on. Naturally I have added these to the weekly shop. I have found that it is so strong I can just burn it a few minutes at a time even when the windows are open. I like a nice background scent but not something that is overpowering.

What's the difference between your wife, your girlfriend and your mistress?


Your Girlfriend says, "Aren't you done yet?"
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Your mistress says, "You're done already?"
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Your wife says, "I think I'll paint the kitchen beige."

Saturday, 29 March 2008

Sex the marital way


Last night I got properly fucked. Generally he is not that big on fucking. Loverboy has had he cock in me before. He likes playing a lot more with includes having me suck him off. Regular sex is what he does with his wife. At one point he told me that he didn't consider playing properly cheating. But last night he was begging me to let him fuck me (make love to me). His wife had gone to bed and I was left alone with him in the living room again.

His erection went on forever and he was really me fucking me hard. I was trying to restrain myself from making too much noise. He felt so great it was hard to control myself.

An unexpected end to an evening at the theatre and the post theatre meal. I was expecting to just go home. He was the furthest thing from my mind. I was busy discussing with my friend how fabulous the restaurant was and the show. It was great evening out. Just as we were finishing we decided to share a taxi to Waterloo as we could both easily catch our trains there in plenty of time.

I kissed my friend good night and walked down to the end of platform and passed the time by reading my program. I barely looked up as the train arrived. I boarded the train and was walking down the carriage to a grab a seat by the window. When I heard a familar voice calling my name I turned to see Loverboy sitting with his wife. I accepted the invite to join them.

As agreed I would text message my earlier friend to confirm I caught the train ok. I looked down at my phone and noticed an incomming text message from Loverboy, "Hi gorgeous I am on the train sitting on the last carriage". He had expected to meet me. Both of them were quite tipsy. His wife was even falling asleep as he was making googly eyes at me.

At then came the invite for a night cap. Of course I knew what that would mean. However after not seeing him for a week I gave in.

Clearly not seeing me has had an impact on him too.

Thursday, 6 March 2008

Sexiest cushions

Love these - just ordered two from Secrets of the Boudoir for £150 each in pure silk.

"My X broke my dick"


I've been in touch with an old flame or rather spark and I must admit interest is there. But now another spanner seems to have been tossed into the mix. He came out and said his X broke his dick.....

Appartently he was on the bottom and his wife was riding him when she slipped and missed. His dick was injured. When torn blood vessels heal cartilage develops and can cause a kink so now he is truly kinky. It can go away on its own i 2-3 years.

Apparently there are things that can be done to straighten it but as he says he is not using it is not an immediate problem. Plus he also said that he prefers 'play' to actual sex.

Sounds familiar but not sure it is the kind of play loverboy and I get up to.

Sunday, 10 February 2008

Valentine's Day




Once upon a time I looked at the world through rose tinted glasses. On the days leading up to Valentine's Day the rose tint strengthened and everything seemed romantic. I spent money on romatic accessories for my home - lights with hearts on a sting were place in the fire place mantle. I bought cented candles, pink champagne, bubble bath, chocolates, cupcakes, flowers, roses, orchids, and beautiful accessories. On Valentine's day my house has a beautiful and romantic glow. No guy ever came close to making Valentine's Day special.

I know I got flowers and on one occasion roses. I also got stuffed animals carrying hearts. Cards of course and one occasion I also got a cheap box of chocolates in a heart shaped box. If course dinner in a restaurant was the norm.

But when I think back what was missing was true romance. I wanted a trail of petals and to be awed and surpised. What I got was like they ticked off the script. Card check, flowers - these will do, dinner yup - done!

Loverboy and I have plans to get together on Valentines and I joked, "Please don't pile up the usual mountain of presents and flowers. I only have a small house and it so hard every year to find room for everything!" His repsonse was that us seeing each other should be enough. He doesn't like to be told when he should be romantic just because it says so on he calendar.

I bought my self a nice box of heart shaped chocs in purple foil, a lipstick red orchid, a bottle of pink champagne and candles. The heart shapped lights are out on the fireplace hearth and the lounge looks like a nice romantic haven. In the bedroom are the purple silk sheets and champagne pink throw with roses by the table lamp.

Valentine's Day will be romantic come hell or high water. Even if it is just something I feel.

Sunday, 3 February 2008

I think I love you


I couldn't possibly love a cheater could I? Have I allowed myself to fall in love with a guy who sneaks around on his wife having trysts with me while his wife is slaving to keeep a nice home and have everything perfect?


I have heard his criticism of her and cringed. I heard him yelling at her and ordering her to go to bed so he could get me alone. She complained to me on more than one occasion that their sex life is non existent and he never touches her anymore despite her remaining fit and attractive.


I am wondering if he has OCPD? Obessive Compulsive Personality Disorder


I'll bet she doesn't get text messages saying, 'Good morning gorgeous' or 'Hi Sexy'. Ever stolen moment he can find is with me. We went for a long leisurely walk and lunch on Friday. No sex. Just talking and being friends. He has been feeling down about work lately and I have been there for a hug and a cuddle. He told me he wants us always to be friends and that he never wants to lose me.


I know this isn't the same thing as being marriage material. How could it be when I am his 'fun' buddy while his wife is slaving her ass off?


As his wife she is accountable to a much higher standard than me. My house is far less conventional and tidy. They both make good money but money is tightly controlled. In fact I am now being to expect that he is a bit of a control freak! I got a text message that because he walked home in the freezing cold the money he saved paid for his fish and chips!! He asked to borrow my travel card on the day I wasn't using it to save another £10? I don't even think of these things. He talks about their finances a lot.


Image is everything to him and he is very meticulous as to how he will look if it all comes out.


I know more about their financial status then I do them.


One minute I can feel myself falling in love with him and wishing there was something more. The next minute I am getting "danger danger"... and the urge to back away slowly.



Thursday, 24 January 2008

Pamela Anderson

Ye Gods! On the heals of other celebs into the design market heads a silicone and bleached sex icon into the world of lingerie.

Pamela Anderson known more for being tasteless rather than tasteful wants to introduce women into wearing things she and her friends like to wear....

She says, “I am going to sit back and create a line of lingerie and body
products, products that are really sexy and things that I love to wear and my
friends love to wear. I also want to do a show about creating those
things.”

Personally I think she should try bringing a touch of glamour to her own everyday life and keep her smalls out of my panty drawer. I certainly don't want her touching my privates.

A little bit of humour

Tuesday, 22 January 2008

Dita Von Tease named as new face of Wonderbra


Dita Von Tease is well known for her love of retro lingerie and I have to agree with her that retro lingerie is much sexier than a thong any day. I have a complete lingerie fetish and love to dress up or rather under.
She said she hopes her range will bring glamour to everday lives. Jeepers who knew that everyday lives didn't include glamour already??? Show me a woman with an 'everyday life' and I will show you a glamour puss.

La Senza Valentine's Day Pick




La Senza has this gorgeous 100% silk set on sale. Perfect for Valentine's Day....

Tapping into my Eternal Spirit

I am loving these playfull nickers by Eternal Spirit.

In the bedroom they bring out my playful side and make me feel like a burlesque star. The matching corsets are divine as well.
Order online from their website or check for stockists near you. There are located in Nottingham so lucky anyone who lives near as their flagship store looks marvelous!!
Bring on Playtime!!




Sunday, 20 January 2008

When he doesn't leave

I have been reading your blog for awhile now. I am also seeing a married man and have been for 3 years now. He promised to leave his wife after 1 year but that was two years ago and he is now saying he can't leave because his kids are not 'robust' enough. I know he loves me. But it is hard knowing he shares a beautiful home, 2 kids and all the holiday with his wife playing happy families while I am left out in the cold. What should I do?

Dear Stuckpeg,
I do sympathize I really do. My own emotions are waxing and waning. Some days I find myself hoping for more and hoping LOverboy will leave but then I got into my relationship as just a temporary fling so that is unrealistic and I remind myself that.
  • Don't pin your hopes on him - remind yourself of his faults including being a lying cheat!!

  • Date other men - go to single events, sign up to Dinnerdates.com, internet dating and make youself available - Let him know he is not the only game in town

  • Make plans for holidays - Do something outrageous like trying skydiving

  • Beware the mind poo - don't think about him when he is not arround

  • Don't try to guess his thoughts men who cheat are selfish by nature

  • He lies to you and he lies to her so don't fall for his excuses

  • Remind yourself that what he tells you about their relationship is not necessarily true

  • Be independent and only see him when it suits you

  • Be fabulous, sexy beautiful and unobtainable

Be funny, charming and light around him. Do not make demands of any kind and that includes asking him when he will leave his wife. Don't let your life revolve around his. Do as you please and let him to the chasing. Chasing him will make him retreat. By dating and living your own life he may feel you are slipping away and leave his wife. But he will only leave if he is ready to do so. You cannot change this. But by living your own life you will be less hurt and not feel as though your life is on hold. You may also meet some one more deserving of your love and end it of your own accord. He may not be totally happy in his marriage but married life still has a powerful hold on most men. It is usally the wife that starts the divorce process.


Lady Salacity

Thursday, 17 January 2008

Grass is green and so is jealously

Loverboy and I have had a few more opportunities than usual and spoken to each other daily as well as seeing each other all but one day. A lot of our time is spent having sex. However we do a fair amount of talking. This week we met for a drink and rode home together in a taxi chatting away. I tell him about my dating progress, the old boyfriend that crawled out the woodwork, my work, what my plans are for the week, what his plans are for the week, things in the news, the weather and anything really.

Everything except his relationship with his wife. I don't ask. In part because I fear the answer. I suspect it is going well and things are good at the moment. All the signs are there. They are planning their vacations for this year. He is talking about his promotion and thinking to the future when they might be able to afford a bigger house.

We have no plans. The closest we have to a plan is date when he thinks his wife will be out. Nothing is certain. I have no plans. I would love a bigger house but I can't afford it on my own. I would love to travel but I hate the idea of travelling on my own. I have plans to out with friends but that is all part of my regular routine. When you are single and live alone you go out for the sake of going out. It is hardly a special occasion.

A special occasion for me was when he carried my bag of garbage down to the street for me. The grass is always greener....